I mentioned David got me a new camera. I've been experimenting with the settings. Here is what I have so far.
Sunday, July 6, 2008
It's been a long while since I updated this...
There are yet again a lot of changes since my last post - some of them good, some not so good - but that's how it goes for everyone right?
School is out and we aren't witnessing the meltdowns anymore with Lyric. Prayer answered! She still gets in trouble every day, but its nothing like it was before. The medicine changes this time get her to where she can choose to behave if she wants. Unfortunately she often does not, but I think a lot of it is how she grew up before she was in my life. I'm still trying to figure out if I'm up to the challenge. I very admittedly fall down (should be too my knees when I'm that mad) and blow up at her. All I can do is apologize and go and do my best from there. Anyways we're working on it and I think I have impressed how important it is to me to get us all back to church. I know he's not going to go back to the church I've gone to for 36 years, but I think he's getting how important going to a church is. I'm really missing my church family where there are people who have known me since I was 2 years old and still love me :o) I want David and Lyric and Kaitlyn, when she graces us with her presence to be a part of a church family with me - I know it won't happen overnight, but I know how important having that personal relationship with God is to your life. I haven't always been great at it, but I always knew it was there and I had a very good foundation from a very young age. I'll just keep praying.
If you remember, I was worried about what we were going to do with Lyric for the summer - well, we have a solution. Tiffany has moved in for the duration of her pregnancy and is usually home with Lyric during the day. Now if Lyric can behave long enough Tiffany will take her to do things. But Tiff's biggest concern is Lyric's lack of concern about following directions and doing what she's told. You just CAN'T count on her to listen to you. She always wants to do what she wants to do and what ever you ask her to do is always optional as far as she seems to be concerned. She could be having a much better summer - but Tiff is unwilling to take the chance. It's sad really because Tiff was ready to come in here and be Lyric's champion and Lyric alienated her within 3 days. What I'm thankful for now, because I look for something to be thankful for in every stress, is that Tiff is here to be with Lyric so she doesn't get into too much trouble and there is always the chance she'll catch her being good and they'll go swimming or something.
Kaitlyn, who moved back with her mom, turned 13, and we've seen her twice now in the weeks since school got out. I'm not sure what to do with all that. This time she came we gave her the birthday presents we'd gotten for her. I'd gotten her a gift card for getting school clothes and a glitter tattoo kit. Lyric and Kaitlyn like to help me do glitter tattoos, but I've found that they do not take care of my things (which is inconvenient because I use that stuff to make money). So, I got Kaitlyn her own kit and I bet she's used half of it already - well, her present and she can use it anyway she likes. Although, I have to admit I thought she knew not to use it inside a house. Grandma's house has never been so shiny! Hopefully she'll realize how important it is to take care of it. She and Lyric do a great job when they help as far as the quality of their work. It always enables me to offer more services.
Kayla moved to her dads, came over to see me supposedly the next weekend and only wanted to be able to see her boyfriend now that he was closer (at least that's how it felt). Then the next weekend was leaving for church camp in NC, wanted me to buy the supplies she still needed, but didn't want to spend time with her mom who is totally not ready for her to want to live somewhere else to begin with and absolutely misses her. That's my perception anyway - and I know how those are. She's supposed to come stay the night tomorrow night. We'll see how that goes. I'm still at that stage where I cry all the time about when she's going leave instead of focusing on the time I have with her. I'm working on it.
I did have the surgery on my hand and while it was more complicated than we anticipated because he had to detach a muscle to get to the bottom of the tumor, and then suture it back, it has outwardly healed very well. The brace I had to wear stinks (especially when I get sweaty in this Florida weather-haha). I'll probably need some physical therapy to get full movement back. I think my dream of someday going to massage therapy school is in the proverbial toilet.
Things are still hard with David. He's made some poor decisions lately in regards to money and mostly behind my back. The things that I thought we'd agreed to work on aren't really and I tell him over and over again that he needs to get me some new wedding rings. I can't wear one now because my hand is too swollen, but the set I loved, inexpensive at $25 (trying to be thrifty) is the set I had gotten after the first hand surgery (because the others didn't fit anymore) had a flaw, was sent back and never seen again. I just want another one. I loved it. I've told David over and over, but he did spend over $100 on a camera for me today. I was thinking that as much fun as I've had with it already- he probably needs to take it back on Monday. We shouldn't have spent the money. We've invited ourselves to a friends house for the 4th and they graciously agreed to cooked, but had to inform us that they didn't have any food to share right then so I want to Sam's and got a bunch of stuff and they'll have leftovers till what they need gets there.
School is out and we aren't witnessing the meltdowns anymore with Lyric. Prayer answered! She still gets in trouble every day, but its nothing like it was before. The medicine changes this time get her to where she can choose to behave if she wants. Unfortunately she often does not, but I think a lot of it is how she grew up before she was in my life. I'm still trying to figure out if I'm up to the challenge. I very admittedly fall down (should be too my knees when I'm that mad) and blow up at her. All I can do is apologize and go and do my best from there. Anyways we're working on it and I think I have impressed how important it is to me to get us all back to church. I know he's not going to go back to the church I've gone to for 36 years, but I think he's getting how important going to a church is. I'm really missing my church family where there are people who have known me since I was 2 years old and still love me :o) I want David and Lyric and Kaitlyn, when she graces us with her presence to be a part of a church family with me - I know it won't happen overnight, but I know how important having that personal relationship with God is to your life. I haven't always been great at it, but I always knew it was there and I had a very good foundation from a very young age. I'll just keep praying.
If you remember, I was worried about what we were going to do with Lyric for the summer - well, we have a solution. Tiffany has moved in for the duration of her pregnancy and is usually home with Lyric during the day. Now if Lyric can behave long enough Tiffany will take her to do things. But Tiff's biggest concern is Lyric's lack of concern about following directions and doing what she's told. You just CAN'T count on her to listen to you. She always wants to do what she wants to do and what ever you ask her to do is always optional as far as she seems to be concerned. She could be having a much better summer - but Tiff is unwilling to take the chance. It's sad really because Tiff was ready to come in here and be Lyric's champion and Lyric alienated her within 3 days. What I'm thankful for now, because I look for something to be thankful for in every stress, is that Tiff is here to be with Lyric so she doesn't get into too much trouble and there is always the chance she'll catch her being good and they'll go swimming or something.
Kaitlyn, who moved back with her mom, turned 13, and we've seen her twice now in the weeks since school got out. I'm not sure what to do with all that. This time she came we gave her the birthday presents we'd gotten for her. I'd gotten her a gift card for getting school clothes and a glitter tattoo kit. Lyric and Kaitlyn like to help me do glitter tattoos, but I've found that they do not take care of my things (which is inconvenient because I use that stuff to make money). So, I got Kaitlyn her own kit and I bet she's used half of it already - well, her present and she can use it anyway she likes. Although, I have to admit I thought she knew not to use it inside a house. Grandma's house has never been so shiny! Hopefully she'll realize how important it is to take care of it. She and Lyric do a great job when they help as far as the quality of their work. It always enables me to offer more services.
Kayla moved to her dads, came over to see me supposedly the next weekend and only wanted to be able to see her boyfriend now that he was closer (at least that's how it felt). Then the next weekend was leaving for church camp in NC, wanted me to buy the supplies she still needed, but didn't want to spend time with her mom who is totally not ready for her to want to live somewhere else to begin with and absolutely misses her. That's my perception anyway - and I know how those are. She's supposed to come stay the night tomorrow night. We'll see how that goes. I'm still at that stage where I cry all the time about when she's going leave instead of focusing on the time I have with her. I'm working on it.
I did have the surgery on my hand and while it was more complicated than we anticipated because he had to detach a muscle to get to the bottom of the tumor, and then suture it back, it has outwardly healed very well. The brace I had to wear stinks (especially when I get sweaty in this Florida weather-haha). I'll probably need some physical therapy to get full movement back. I think my dream of someday going to massage therapy school is in the proverbial toilet.
Things are still hard with David. He's made some poor decisions lately in regards to money and mostly behind my back. The things that I thought we'd agreed to work on aren't really and I tell him over and over again that he needs to get me some new wedding rings. I can't wear one now because my hand is too swollen, but the set I loved, inexpensive at $25 (trying to be thrifty) is the set I had gotten after the first hand surgery (because the others didn't fit anymore) had a flaw, was sent back and never seen again. I just want another one. I loved it. I've told David over and over, but he did spend over $100 on a camera for me today. I was thinking that as much fun as I've had with it already- he probably needs to take it back on Monday. We shouldn't have spent the money. We've invited ourselves to a friends house for the 4th and they graciously agreed to cooked, but had to inform us that they didn't have any food to share right then so I want to Sam's and got a bunch of stuff and they'll have leftovers till what they need gets there.
This is a long one. Maybe if I posted more often they would be shorter :o) I did want to mention that Tiffany's belly is starting to grow. I post some pictures tomorrow probably. I don't know if anyone looks at this anyway, but it has been cathartic for me tonight. It's almost 4 am, I think I can go to sleep now. Good night all and God Bless you each and every one.
Here's a beautiful picture that Tiffany took this morning from our beach 15 minutes away.
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